tealcarron04

Okay so I have a good friend that is currently doing the medifast diet.  This is a bit expensive for my blood, but I love the way she has totally kept on track with her reward system.  I am trying to think of how I can do this.  I am looking for ideas as what I could use as “rewards” for myself.  Any ideas would be great.

Now I am trying to figure out how to get rid of this weight that I seem to lose and then gain more then I lost when my cycle starts.  Any ideas there would be great too.

Okay, so on the 10th I weighed in and was 265.  I weigh in today and after eating Chinese food none the less weigh in at 258.  What is up with that? 

I havent done anything differant other then have been sleeping a lot more (anywhere from 8-9 1/2 hrs) and snacking on carrots and french onion dip all day and eating one large meal (dinner) as a family.  It isnt really all the large, but its usually something along the lines of fried chicken, potatoes, and corn.  Things like that.  Stress seems to be a huge factor.  Well on top of being really depressed.

Not only did I gain back the 5 that I lost, but another 3 on top of that.  I swear that nothing is working these days.  Someone please help me!!!!! 

Lord knows my husband is no help at all.

It has been a month and 1 day, and I am 5 pounds lighter.  I am so proud of myself.  I have not really gained any weight after Thanksgiving.  That could be thanks to the massive amount of vegitarian food made. YUCK!!!!  I really do like my meat, but hey at least I have gone down 5 pounds.  Now Christmas is going to be another story……Mom didnt cook thanksgiving dinner that was all my sisters doing……however she is cooking good Christmas dinner, so I will probably put back on those 5 pounds, but maybe my husband will get it all.  Anytime that is spent at my parents usualy results in him getting heavier.  Unlike me that is good for him.  He does love to eat my mom’s cooking. 

I think that a mijority of my weight loss it thanks to getting dental work done recently.  It has been over a week since that has been done, but the mouth is still very sore, and eating really doesnt appeal to me much.

I am still going to need loads of support and ideas for how to keep up on this weight loss.

Boy if this isnt a great anniversary.  It is being spent at home snowed in, and even worse, with my father in-law.  3 yrs, and this isnt really great.  I was looking forward to a nice dinner and a movie,  just me and Bill, but no we are snowed in so that kinda blows that idea.  Why is it that my life cant get better.  We havent had a good anniversary since we got married.  Our honeymoon was spent at my parents.  Not that that was a bad thing.  Then the next year was spent with him working.  UGH!!!  Then last year wasnt so bad, we went to a hotel, and had a nice dinner, but the following morning were woke up by his co-workers calling his phone.  So all in all this year is worse then last.  Okay I am done rambling.

Okay today was not the best day.  I have been wondering why I have been sleeping so much, and staying up so late.  Then I look at the date and realize that it is the day that my first husband died 6 years ago.  I dread this day every year.  This is when I tend to eat eat and eat some more to keep from remembering what the day is.  Surprisingly, I slept through it.  Then stayed up all night again last night.  Guess I will be somehow getting some sleep soon.  Of course the headaches have gotten worse so that may be another reason that I havent been eating and sleeping.  None the less I am still losing weight and that is the important part.  Go to the doctor tomorrow, and will see what he has to say.  UGH!!!!

I have lost 2 pounds….I am so proud of myself.  Not real sure how I did it being that I haven’t really done anything out of the ordinary.  Been sleeping a lot, and not really eating due to massive tension headaches, but what can I say…..whatever helps.

I just need to figure out how to talk my husband into being more supportive.  That may help some more then just me feeling like I am doing this all alone.